Our Thanksgiving was wonderful. It was simple. It was the most enjoyable one T and I could remember having. Nana, Pop, Grandma, Grandad, KK, Kam and our friend Johnny all came for lunch. Our only decorations were on the table and the mantle (ok, so the big pretty ceramic pumpkin would have been out but I feel sure SP would have found a way to throw it) and for lunch we ate on our china. Most of the food was done the night before, everyone was comfortably dressed and there was so much laughter and smiling. No headaches, no tantrums (again...not counting the toddler).
That's what I want for Christmas. I was reminded this past Sunday of what I'm truly Thankful for. And do you know what that is? You actually won't believe this one at first. I didn't. I was in bible study class (my Young Mom's class, oh yea!) and I was brought to tears, overwhelming tears as I scratched out my first "automatic" response to "what are you most thankful for" and wrote what God was speaking to my heart. I had to laugh it off at first and told my class I had recently cut my meds in 1/2 hence the overwhelming tears...but they are the most amazing ladies and saw through my ruse ;-)
Ready for this one?
James's cerebral palsy. Yes, you read that correctly. For so many years I've put him on the "if you could have anything for Christmas, anything at all...what would it be?" question for healing. For him to walk. run. whatever. But as I wrote that typical answer down also I had to scratch it out as well as I wrote "James's cerebral palsy" for the first question instead. You see, it's like God finally opened my eyes to how much in my life I would have missed out on, blessings from Him, reminders of His love, His grace, His goodness...if James had not been born as he is. I would not have people in church, MEN in church, tell me how much they love seeing James and getting to know him. How they pray for him. I capitalize MEN b/c usually, it's us women-folk who say things like that out loud. But in our case, it's also guys. They find James so funny, enjoyable and just a true encouragement to life. They see him as we do. They see him as God does. And now I finally understand.
It's still hard, physically and emotionally for our family, I won't lie. But wow, the lives God has touched through this one boy, it's overwhelming. I can truthfully say now...I wouldn't change him for the world. He is amazing. I am thankful for him and for his disability.
And so this brings me full circle back to a simple holiday. I want to keep this feeling in my heart and my head as we face the craziness of Christmas. I want to keep my focus on my boys, on the blessings they are, as different as they are. I want to enjoy my husband, because let's face it, he is one AWESOME man. He loves us so much.
We will put up a tree. We have a wreath on the door and two poinsettias on the table. I will put up the stockings and probably the little tree in James's room with his Looney Tunes ornaments. Then we will just spend time watching Christmas movies together, enjoying each other, enjoying our families and sharing the love of Christ.
Focus on your thankfulness and peace with going against the grain of society will fall into place.
It can be just that simple.