I have been in the Blahs for about 2 weeks now...ever been there? Why am I there? I really have no idea. Usually by this time of the year, I am in anxiety mode because belive it or not, I'm already worrying about J and school next fall. That's not it this year. I just know I have felt blah, that's the best word for it. I do know one of my hangups is I haven't been in scripture like I was during that amazing bible study Discerning the Voice of God...the one we are doing right now just isn't workin' for me...or better yet, I'm not letting it work for me I guess. That can make or break your day, I am learning...drawing (or not drawing) close to God.
I had to force myself to walk yesterday morning b/c of the blahs. Granted, training for the 3Day can become quite boring, but it's something I have learned after 2 of them, you really should do because it truly helps with blisters (or lack thereof) and other issues at the actual event. I just wasn't feeling it when I woke up. I made (ok...forced) myself put on walking clothes and shoes, though and just before walking out the door, grabbed my 3Day backpack that I train with. I haven't used it yet this year, been putting it off...cause of the blahs. But after just a quarter of a mile, I could feel the energy coming, I could feel the encouragement, I started remembering last year's walk. I'm not saying the blahs are totally gone, but wow, that backpack made it feel right. It gave purpose to my walk, and I made 6 miles.
That got me thinking today (while walking again w/my trusty backpack)...just like that backpack...scripture just makes it feel right, doesn't it? Learning God's character, who He is, how He works, why He loves me, listening to the Holy Spirit...just makes it feel right, it gives purpose to my life and I can make it through the day. And I've been missing it.
Sometimes you gotta praise first and feel it later...or walk first and feel it later...or read your Bible first and feel it later...especially when you don't feel like doing anything. It's not all about the feelings, sometimes it's about just doin' it.
My friend Bling and I are challenging each other with our own "study" of sorts and it will carry us well into the summer. Cuz there are things we just have trouble feeling sometimes, so we're going to "do" first and let the feelings follow, we are trusting God with this one. We have decided to start keeping scripture on index cards like Beth Moore mentioned in the simulcast we attended (So Long, Insecurity...it was AWESOME). We're going to write down one from each day we do our study and carry them with us as reminders. I know this is not a new idea to most or all of you, it's not to us either, but we are excited about it.
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